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Dear Future Husband,

If I come off a roller coaster crying, this does not mean that I hated it. Rides make my eyes water. Often, excessively. This is the only time I will not want you to hold me while I am crying. Got that?

Here are some things I should write.

On things:

Go see Crazy Stupid Love.
I got a copper tea kettle.
My shoulder is burnt to a crisp.
I break a lot of wine bottle corks.
I got a pickle hat at the state fair.
I cried for three straight days in July because of fear and disappointment.
My eyes got real puffy.
I'm excited for school.
I kind of want a dreadlock or two.
My best friend comes home from China in a week.
Another leaves for China in a week and a half.
He's the one that made me cry.
And he's reading this.
But it's okay.
Because it wasn't good.
So I'm fine!
Also, I was pms'ing.
Guys, a girl loudly chewing her gum made me cry while I was pms'ing once.
Sometimes I rap Super Bass.
I'm a bartender. Have I told you that?
Saying this makes me laugh.
Don't ask me to make you something.
I probably don't know what it is.

On my anxiety medication:

First dose and second dose I noticed nothing. I upped it yet again, and again. Some of my OCD tendencies, which were not even a large concern to me before, got so so much worse. To the point where I had to consciously refocus my thoughts from time to time and walk away from situations that I would still think about for at least part of the day. And my anxiety/agoraphobia tendencies were only better sometimes, which could mean nothing, because some days are better than others without meds, too. So, I went back down a dosage because 100 mg was freaking my brain out. I'm slowly getting off of them now, so... we'll see. Maybe I'll try another kind of med. Maybe I won't.

The only other side effect? CRAZY VIVID DREAMS. Some days I literally will have to stop and think about whether or not something occurred in my dream or real life. And yes, the week HP 7.2 came out I had about 3 consecutive nights of Hogwarts dreams. Meds make me a wizard. But, now we have Pottermore to do that! (MistThestral108) ;]

I want you guys to know that -

Paige, I drove through Georgia this summer and wished I knew how close I was to you!
Abbie, I often think about the fact that we live probably 2 hours away and could actually hang out some day.
Kaleena, I appreciate you. Thank you for being there! :]
Melinda, OH MY GOSH, would you just RESPOND to my e-mail already?! It's been FOREVER. ;]
Lex, You're a goof. I like you.
Jimmy, Congrats you two! :]
Andrew, Don't die please. You need to keep your blog.
Elizabeth, I hope home sweet home in Australia is all you've missed and more!
Katie, I look at your pictures all the time.
New Followers, HI LET'S BE FRIENDS.